Suicide love

Everyone is trying to get a hold of something,however,some are simply chasing the wind.Once you love someone it’s hard to get them out of your mind even for just a minute. We never want our loved one’s even a mile apart from us but often that’s never the case.
Just like life how we wake up in the morning uncertain of the outcome of the day yet still hopeful for a superb one. So is love,we fall in love full of expectations mostly to feel the love reciprocated by our partner but what if that’s not the case?
I did love him with every grain and fibre in me..There was nothing I would not do for him,I’m talking of the possible and impossible. He was the reason behind the big smile you all got attached to.No minute ever passed by without a thought of him brushing through my mind,I wish I could be with him everyday and show him what a souvenir he is to me. Woe to any human who tried to talk ill of him at an earshot distance..He was my Hero,My friend,My refuge,my guilty addiction and slowly I was becoming obsessed with him.Black was no longer black but a shade of brown and white was just but a clear black. I didn’t know what I was getting myself into and I didn’t have the slightest audacity.I was bad news and my sudden change of leaf was crystal clear even to the most unpredictable people. I was a lion protecting her hunt after days of nothing but hunger. “You deserve the best”was my wake up call.I was wrong this entire time .When you love someone you don’t let them destroy you along with themsyelves,you don’t allow them to drag you through their mud.


Amazing how a love story so strong so beautiful turned sour…I guess it was all in my head.He recently called me a name he never did,I have to keep up and be the big gal I always wanted to be. Yes I have always loved him and will always do and that is what I’ll had onto My pure love. I’ll give my all only to myself..I need time to heal time to smile and enjoy life.
This has to be that year I focus on myself and discover my self worth and value to test my limits and make it through..Do what I love eachday..accept my flaws and work on them..